Good Times? Bad Times?

My dear husband always comment that i only remember times when he anger me but not those times when he does nice things for me. Of course i will go into full denial mode whenever that happens but when i sit down and think about it, will realised what he says are pretty much true.

The sky always seem to be falling down on me when things do not go the way it should be. It seems like the end of world during my pregnancy because of the pain, discomfort and uncertainties that bothers me daily. The future looked so bleak during the long 8 months because i'm not even confident that i'll recovered from the pregnancy and all those pesky symptoms. I was very depressed during that period due to the pain and discomfort and not forgetting the hormonal changes.

I'm glad i finally pull through the ordeal but just when i thought i'll have happier times ahead, someone close to me is feeling unwell again. From her, i see a depressive me during my pregnancy but probably 10 times worse than me. She is currently feeling very sorry for herself and feels that she's the unluckiest person on earth with the saddest life story. She had forgotten the many good times when she's feeling healthy and able to engage in normal activites. She's making us miserable with all her ultra-negative thoughts and constant crying. I had been bringing her all over the places seeking medical help, footing all those expensive bills, finding time to accompany her and helping out with her household chores. However, think these are the best i can do for her considering i have a infant at home requiring my care and concerns too. Realised that i cannot be a superwoman and try to take care of everybody except myself especially i'm a mother now and Breanna will need me more than anybody else now.

Realised i must treasure the good times now and create many good memories and hopefully those wonderful memories will tide me over the bad times. Can only pray hard and hopefully we can pull through these difficult times with a positive ending.

Whatever will be, will be.